I honestly don't know how to express how much of a wreck I am. Imagine a semi speeding down a hill, and the brakes are gone. Everything is not okay. Things are not in control. Things I don't like to think about and am afraid to admit to come out. I'm lost.
Ever since I started school for what I do I've felt like I'm not smart enough. Yes, I passed the tests, and yes, I found a job, but the whole time I felt like I was fooling everyone else. Didn't they see that I had no idea what was going on? I have no idea how I passed the tests. Lucky, I guess.
I wish I was still at home. And maybe that I was in elementary school again. And forever. But things can't just stay simple, can they?
Ugh this is stupid. What an awful post. But I'll admit something here.
I scare myself, sometimes.